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Sunday, August 29, 2004

WOMAD '04

Went for WOMAD last night. The crowd was so spontenous..and there was this little girl who was SO SO CUTE!! And this angmoh daddy who was so sweet. The daddy was sweet coz he said something which is so unexpected. He said, "Sophie (the elder daughter), can u exchange one of the blue ones (referring to the glow in the dark sticks) with meimei (lil sister in chinese)." What so sweet about it?? He started off with a very english accent and ended the sentence off with a chinese word..i dunno...i just felt that it was very sweet...Oh..the lil girl..she was so so cute coz she was so hyper...dancing from the start of the show until when we left... =P The whole event was so enjoyable coz we were so prepared..how prepared?? go read Karen's blog..she's even got the pictures we took posted up..the type of music that they played and all. In the end, we got so hyped up. And i was all smiles except for an insignificant thing that happened..but like i said, it was insignificant. I was happy after all. =P

Upsetting Event.....

Let's observe a minute of silence for Karen and Jeannette's beloved hamster, Small bb. She passed away this morning.

Didn't call Karen in the late morning and neither did i go online until very late in the afternoon. Poor her. She has to cope with the passing of our beloved Small bb all alone, and for the 1st time in her life, something close to her has left...eternally. Felt so terrible that i was unable to be there the minute the needed me most. Guess this is the cause of everything. I am sorry. Time and time again, i was unable to be there for you. I need to change things. I need to make myself contactable for you. Don't want you to be facing all these terrible moments alone. I want to be there for you. Give me time and let me try. Hugs.

-iWrote 8/29/2004 03:15:00 PM

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Dense people

I am so surprised at how seemingly smart intellectual people can swtich to imbeciles without warning. I mean, which part of "the seat is taken" don't you understand? OR which part of "do i need to put in the scientific names for this question" don't the Lec understand? Oh..by the way, the Lec has a doctorate and the former question is referring to this classmate of mine wanting to be the next millionaire business man in the Biotech field.

Now, for those interested, this is what happened in class just before and during the test.

Everyone was settling down and leaving our bags at the front or back of the class. There i was standing behind my seat, watching over my friends seats (obviously they were stuck at the font of the classrom). Then came i-wanna-be-a-millionaire-boss YC and happily took one of the chairs. My reaction would obviously be to tell him that the seats are taken. And as self absorbed as he can be, he said, "There's no bag on the table nor is there a name or person on the chair." Tired and all, i repeated myself with much angst. Then again, came his same utterly stupid reply. Infuriated, i screamed at him and told him that he could jolly well take the chair at the back with all those bags on it and leave this chair alone. Being the asshole any guy can be, he told me to go get that chair instead. OMG!! TIAN LI HE ZAI?!? I came first and booked the seats and i have to give it up to someone??

You might say that i'm kicking up a storm in a tea cup. But here's something for you. I am a lady and i expect guys to be gentlemanly. Stop touching or taking the things that the lady wants you to leave alone. Need something? Go get it yourself and not from another lady. Most importantly, i must admit, i am very tired as i had only 2hrs of sleep. The last thing i need would be another self-absorbed i-am-all-that guy.

Anyway, back to what's happening in class.

Infuriated and tired, i decided that i should stop trying to make him understand my point. I went over to the seats with lotsa bags on it and placed everything on the table next to it. Of course, i did that with a little swearing. If i don't, that's not me. Somehow, when i started moving the bags, he realised my point and came over. But some guys are always slow. In movement and in getting things into their puny brains. By the time he came over, i had already lifted the chair and preparing to bring it over. He then took it from me as conveniently as the way he wanted to take the previous chair. I was even more infuriated but decided to let the matter drop. Then loudly to him, i said, "Never anger a lady". Nope. I didn't swear this time round.

During the paper, I asked my Lec if i needed to write out the scientific names of the fishes. "I cannot tell you anything pertaining to the question paper" came another stupid reply. Just that this this round, it's from someone with a doctorate. I can ask that question during exams. Why can't i ask it during tests?? I ain't asking for answers what! Even my classmates are bewildered at her reply. You can't say i'm being difficult here. The whole class feels the same way. Bleh!

At a glance

3 bad days in a row for me and my mum in total. Mum injured her forehead the day before yesterday and it caused her to lose a considerable amount of blood and a blue-black eye at the end of the day. Yesterday, mum fell down a flight of steps on her way home due to the heavy rain earlier. The fall resulted in a painful blue black at the end of her spine and back aches that were so terrible, she had to have me help her up when she's lying down or seated on a cushion.
As for me, I had to experience 2 consecutive days of irritation by self-absorbed guys and a stupid Lec who pronounces 'water' in a very indian way. I really need to sleep. I might just kill the next person that comes by to irritate me.

Mum taking 2 days off from work at the cafeteria. My little cousin, Sarah, is ill and Aunt is elated to know of the 2 days break. Guess she misses her kids now when she's not constantly at home. But she's did complain that she can't go play mahjong with her friends coz Sarah is ill. haahaa..

-iWrote 8/26/2004 01:02:00 PM

Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Of Tickets and Respect

About a month ago, Karen brought back some Sistic pamplets and we decided to go for Trocks (a all guys ballet group and yes..they are good at their performance..) and WOMAD. I was supposed to go get the tickets but obviously i didn't have the time due to my busy schedule. When i was free to get the tickets, i had already lost my wallet. No wallet = no valid student pass. No, i cannot use my student matrix card coz it appears to be expired although i'm still in school. So, the RESPONSIBILITY of getting the tickets to Trocks rested on oh-so-self-obsessed Yisa. The plan was to watch a matinee (just for those who are unsure what this means, it's an afternoon show) but oh-so-self-obsessed Yisa (yes...i am driving at you being so f**king self absorbed) only wanted to watch the evening shows(for what reason i don't know..maybe he thinks it's more classy?). I compromised coz he was doin me a favor of getting the tickets. Final decision? Watch the Saturday evening show.

Finally after so many weeks, he finally went to get the tickets. THERE WERE NO MORE STUDENT TICKETS!!! Karen knows how mad i am going to be and thus told Yisa. And...he has the cheek to say, "So what? Does it help?" Well...this will be my answer if i'm there..."No B*TCH! It doesn't! But you obviously don't respect or even care about others!" The whole world knows how hard it is for me to go out and do the things i really want to do. And if i can give a valid reason that will be easily accepted by my mum, it will obviously be great. But my plans can only work if those involved work with me. Like they always say, opportunity only knocks once.

This is my second try at watching a ballet performance and i still can't get to watch!! Why the big hoo-haa about it?? Student tickets are priced at $40 across all categories..which means...u can get a seat that costs $84 (Cat 1) for $40..now you get why i'm so pissed? Still dunno??! I get good seats to watch a good performance at a cheap low price!!

Now, can you please tell me how perfect that evening will be if i got my tickets? Thank you so very much for spoiling a possible perfect evening out.

Recently, i've come to realise that i cannot depend on anyone to do anything right. Which includes returning me my tutorials and not losing them for me. Seriously speaking, i don't think anyone cares and everyone presumes that beause i'm a nice person and that i forgive people's mistakes, they can just take the things i say or ask them to do lightly. I have very long days. My day starts at 6 or 7am till 12mn or 1am everyday of every week of every month. The last thing i need are people who take me lightly or for granted. I can become very irritable and i am pretty sure none of you want that. Or do you??

-iWrote 8/25/2004 09:07:00 PM

Sunday, August 22, 2004

Quizzes!!!

Quiz 1

Vodka

Vodka

?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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Quiz 2

dependent

Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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-iWrote 8/22/2004 07:20:00 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Lost comments

I finally managed to change the blogskin, put my archives back on and added a comment box..ALL ON MY OWN...but the thing is, all my previous comments are gone...erm..actually to be more exact, they can't appear on my new comment box coz they don't have a record of it..how vexing..i want all my comments back. But i guess there isn't any way to get them back..so most probably i'll have to settle with what i have..which is...no comments at all!!! How sad can this be? i mean a blog without anyone commenting??!! *faint* i really hope someone can come tell me how to put those comments back..*prays hard*

Not worth my 20 minutes

I guess most or everyone who eats regularly at Clementi Central Hawker Centre will know of this stall that supposedly sells very good wan tan mee..so...for today's lunch, we, Karen and i, decided to get the noodles from that stall..we had to wait for a good half an hour before we got to eat it..but during the waiting time, we did get mutton soup with bread. To me, it's a malay delicacy..it's really delicious...trust me...and you don't have to wait for more than 10 minutes to get it.. =P

Anyways, back to the mee..i had to go ask if it's ready before they send it over..it's so frustrating..i mean it didn't happen just once. Karen's friends who ordered it also had to go ask for it. The noodles were not really nice..just alot of soy sauce and other sauces that you find in dry noodles. As for the ingredients?? The oiled chicken is rather tender...the wantan are relatively nice and the shui jiao are alright...not fantastic...

Conclusion?? I dunno why people wait so long for such substandard food and actually say it's nice. There must be something really wrong with their taste buds.

Any recomendations?? The otar sold at the stall selling fish porriage, the deep fried jackfruit sold by the stall just behind the fish porriage one..both stalls selling cha kway tiao..the fried carrot cake done by the old uncle...the famous curry puff done by a chinese couple...the chicken rice from the stall opp the coffee shop (really big servings if you have it all the chicken on one plate for 2 pple)..the sugarcane juice from the stall beside the one selling dumplings (got a very pretty auntie there wor...short shorts...heels...curly hair...no visible wringkles...haahaahaa....i sound as if i'm interested in her....lol...)...and of course the satay (chinese stall that opens only in the evenings) and the mutton soup by...erm....not sure which stall...think it's the one beside the drink stall...

Irritated

Somehow i seem to always have problematic people around me. Maybe i shouldn't say that they are problematic but then they always have some sort of reason to forget this...forget that...and even forget who is in their practical groups. They are just so self absorbed that most probably if they ever read this, they'll most probably go like..."who says so...she's the one being the bitch" or "you so sensitive for wat??!! machiam like my fault to forget things like tt??!!"...so before anyone can say tt to me....let me tell you tt i'm proud being a bitch. at least i know what i'm like. do you know what you're like?? And being a bitch pays off too...look at Quan Yi Feng...a channel U artise..she's a bloody shrewd woman who i guess most will call her a bitch, she has a really gd husband..and some other examples which i can't rem rite now....

And about forgetting things?? well it says alot about tt person....even if a simple thing as remembering the members of your group is so difficult, then it only goes to show how much respect you have for others. Hello??!! the world doesn't revolve around you you know?? (it revolves ard me!! haahaahaa...just joking... =P) Forgetting things can make others call you irresponsible..so i guess i can just say that these pple have little or no sense of responsibility at all...

hmmm....i guess that explains why i'm so tired....i've to remember everything on my own and i've no one to remind me even if it slips my mind..but i do give credit to those that try to get the dates for work submission from me...at least they are trying...better than nothing rite??

oh yes...i can't stand pple who pull long faces at me when i ask them to do work just because they wanna go out with their other half or go out with frens to have fun..so....there you have it again....they have no sense of responsibility....none at all...and the worse thing is...when you let them off..they can switch back to their smiley faces and smile at you without a tinge of remorse like a light switch.. *argh...#$%^&* sometimes i just wanna tear the smile off their faces..literally and practically....bloody self absorbed f**kers!!!

-iWrote 8/21/2004 09:29:00 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2004

New blog skin and my week

Hey peeps!! haahaa...finally got a new blog skin and added a few links..ya ya...i know some pple must be like "when is she gonna add her *beep* links" haahaahaa...anyone who wants me to add them to my list can ask me..but then...i might or might not add...depends on how well i know you.. =P

Quick Update
Had a really nice dinner on Friday evening. What's on the menu?? BBQ stingray and sotong with balachan and veg in oyster sauce and oil.. =P Then went to do some lingerie shopping with Karen..but she left me to go to my bus stop half way there coz her fren called and said she could meet. Not a very nice ending to a nice evening. No doubt i was both angry and sad. But i realised i was evil. Really really evil. I just wanted her to accompany me as and when i want her to. It doesn't matter if she had things to do or not. And i realised i didn't care if she had to head home all alone, accomplishing nothing with the bus fares that she had to pay. The feeling actually made me smile and come to a conclusion that if i can't have all of her, no one else can.....how evil....

Saturday was alright. Can't really remember what i did. But i know i was out the whole day.. =P

Went to watch Fireworks display(Singapore team) last Sunday. It was actually nicer than i expected it to be..at least i thot it was nicer than the HK team's. This outing was a last minute decision.

Monday till now was alright. Although i had to admit that i was frustrated, confused, upset and all last night. 1st of all, i really don't like knowing about things last minute esp from people i want to have. Although i think it's alright for me to inform others of stuff at the 11th hour coz i'm a really busy person..or at least i think i am. (Double standards?? not at all...) I am but a self-conceited bitch. I just want everyone to love me and have their lives circle ard mine...haahaa..well then..that says alot about me doesn't it?? But i guess i can be nice too..maybe i just feel a lil empty right now..

Went to the Zoo on Tuesday...pple who have not been there for ages should go..there's really lotsa things to see..no more long walks along the Seletar reservoir that happens to be part of the park.. =P even the enterance to the Zoo has been renovated..the noisy parrots are no longer there..haahaa..i really hated the parrots..everything looks more 'classy' rite now.. =)

oh well..guess that's all for my week..for more info, you guys have to go visit Karen's blog. She has all the photos up already.. =)

Thanks Sitz..what you said today really made my day..hope that a few decades from now, we'll still be able to get along as well as we do now..even better if it improves... =P

-iWrote 8/19/2004 06:02:00 PM

Monday, August 09, 2004

People and displays

Display
Was watching the fireworks display at promenade last night. Wasn't anything extremely spectacular but it was the one who accompanied me that made it all nice and beautiful. Anyways, i had to spoil part of the night by screaming at her. Felt real bad about it and i apologised shortly after. Guess i was just being worried about certain stuff that was being unintentionally recorded down when i was recording the display. Why don't i take photos instead?? They die out too quickly for me to even catch them. I just wasn't good enough a photographer. =P

The Journey There
As we were walking to promenade (our original destination was Shears Bridge coz we presumed it wouldn't be crowded as it wasn't stipulated as one of the viewing sites for the show..but well..if 2 pple can think that way, why not many more?? Shears Bridge was crowded.), i realised that many do not watch where they are going. i.e. they just keep their eyes on one point and walk ahead oblivious to their surroundings that others want to walk past them. Or, they keep looking at the ground while they walk. Not saying sorry even if they bang right into others. Instead, they might even stare at you as if you were the one walking without eyes. (brainless people @#$%)

Dinner
It felt so great to be dining at Fish & Co. Glasshouse again after so long. I had actually planned to go there for dinner with Karen a few weeks back. But due to some unforseen circumstances, I decided not to go ahead with my plans. 'Tho i could still go ahead with it but there wasn't any occasion for it anymore. Anyways, we had a platter for one (those that had gone to any Fish & Co. to eat, will know how big their servings are) complete with a soup and drink and a side dish of bagguett (pronounced as ber-get just in case you're struggling with it) with butter garlic spread. Karen was full by the time we were done but i still could stomach more food. Haahaa..i guess i was just very happy. Being happy increases my appitite..(hmm...i should get upset more often..then i'll be able to lose weight..haahaahaa...just joking). Our 'motto' for the food we eat...'The oilier, the better'. Food that had lots of oil and butter surely taste a whole lot better than those with less or no oil or butter. How can anyone actually stomach food that taste so dry and bland?

After the Show
After walking for half an hour and standing in one spot for an hour just to watch a not-so-spectacular-but-kinda-exciting display of fireworks, we decided to avoid the crowd. So we sat at the edge of the water break while struggling to send msges (I thot there would be reception everywhere we go...not even a singtel line could send the msg). In the end we had to get up and walk to another spot just behind us to send the msges (@#$% how come one spot have then another don't?? we're in the OPEN!!).

Anyway, the crowd seemed to have dispersed so we started walking. Half way there, we realised that the crowd was still ard. Maybe due to the burgers and drinks. The burgers are those that you can find at the pit stops when you're travelling on the highway in M'sia. Real nice..but we weren't exactly hungry so we gave it a pass. Bought ice Milo from one of those a-stall-in-a-van type of thing. There wasn't much ice in it so we wouldn't exactly call it ice Milo. The stall was ran by a group of kids. One of the boys cut his finger and washed it with the water from the ice box (for christ sake..you're gonna get an infection like that but that's none of my business...boys have big egos..shan't tell him that...lest he thinks that i think he's stupid and tells his fren to spit in my drink...Eeek!). We didn't want to get the drink due to the lack of ice but we took pity of the kids and got it anyways. Didn't finish it coz it only made us more thirsty.

Decided to go over to Victoria Concert Hall and sit around. We suddenly realised that there wasn't any traffic light for us to cross over so we jay walked...or rather jay ran across the roads. The traffic light was red anyways. From there, we walked all the way to Mad Monks then to 7-Eleven to get a bottle of mineral water. Along the way, we were looking for a place to seat but everywhere had quite a number of people. Didn't find a seat but we found Claudia, my 'nu er' ('daughter'). That explained why we went to Monks. Along the way, this particular couple was deep in passion and i couldn't help it and made some stupid noises..haahaa...just for the fun of it. Didn't stay long at Monks. We started heading back to Fullerton so that i can take a bus home after getting the mineral water. Along the way, we sat down, chit chatted, counted how many levels a certain building have, and i got frightened by a guy coming up from the river...imagine u and ur fren sitting there...a few river boats below you..then all of a sudden, something appeared to be climbing up by the wall of the river real slowly. yes yes..the typical water-ghost-come-grap-your-leg senario..haahaahaa...it was actually a boatman. He noticed my reaction and laugh at me and said that he's not a water ghost...don't worry...haahaahaa....faintz....

After that, we walked on and Karen tired to send a msg to WD but it just wouldn't get through. It was so frustrating. We then went into Fullerton Hotel and there were quite a number of pple there who went to watch the display..nice ambience...nice music and they even got KOI FISH!!!! SO MANY!!! SO PRETTY!!! i was so excited by it all until my mum called to irritated me with a few stupid qns..(@#$%)..decided to walk out of the hotel coz i wasn't in a beautiful mood anymore. Mum hung up shortly after and we sat down to chat..but my bus came and i was so reluctant to leave..Asked Karen if she wanted me to take the next bus..but she wasn't sure coz she had to meet WD in awhile..and my next ride might not come that soon...so off i went..

On the Bus
Tried calling Karen when i was on the bus...but i just couldn't get thru..must be the reception again..so i kept trying. I sat down beside this guy and he asked me lots of questions about the fireworks display. Like erm...where is it and so on and so fort..he was so queer...i mean he kept talking softer and softer and i had to lean closer to hear him. In the end, i decided to concentrate on getting through to Karen. When he realised what i was doing, he took out his hp and did the same thing too..weird. When i got through to Karen, he went 'Shhhhh....' all of a sudden and in my mind i went 'OMG!!!! i wanna get out of here'. But i ignored him and continued talking to Karen. I guess that guy is either a lil out of sorts or just plain autistic. Oh well...a very very eventful day for me..i wonder if my companion enjoyed hers........

-iWrote 8/09/2004 08:35:00 AM

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Dinner

Was supposed to have mum cook dinner for me but she was too tired. So she suggested that i go buy my own dinner as she was gonna go out with her fren for supper later. Lazy as i can be, i decided to ask her to go buy for me but my request was rejected. I decided not to eat. But mum later said that she'll ask her fren to get me dinner when she's dropping by to pick her up.

My Dinner => Unagi (eel) rice, chawamushi, xi yang cai soup and ginseng chicken.

-iWrote 8/07/2004 10:24:00 PM

i am not evil...really...haahaahaa

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's" Inferno Hell Test

-iWrote 8/07/2004 07:19:00 PM

Friday, August 06, 2004

Listening......

I made Karen angry by appearing to be unattentive and not interested in what she was saying. But i was really listening. I just didn't want to appear to be coz the flaw that we were talking about has to do with me and by making her point clear to me, it clearly shows that she percieved part of me or what makes up some part of me to be a flaw.

Maybe by preventing myself from being hurt by what other's say, others that i care about get angry with me. Maybe i should just get hurt to please others. It ain't very difficult and it's possible to get used to getting hurt. Not very healthy but everyone is happy at the end of the day. My feelings are not important. I am easy to please and i forget unhappiness easily. As long as others are happy, i will naturally be happy.

-iWrote 8/06/2004 01:20:00 PM

Thursday, August 05, 2004

starting somewhere

I need to remember that you are no longer mine..
Need to stop feeling jealous.
As jealousy springs from love
Thus i need to stop loving you

Even if you were to sleep with someone else..
Even if you were to kiss someone else..
I have to be nonchalant about it..
Coz you are allowed to do so

I am no longer important
No longer the lover
I am but just another friend
Friends have no say in your life

I have to learn to start detaching myself
From you, one way or another
It's still starting somewhere
I must remember that you are no longer mine

I'll no longer question you
I'll no longer feel the pain
Nor will i appear sombre
I will not sink into oblivion

-iWrote 8/05/2004 05:53:00 AM

Monday, August 02, 2004

Personality test

Freudian Inventory Results

Genital (46%) you appear to be stuck between a progressive and regressive outlook on life.
Latency (56%) you appear to have a good balance of knowledge seeking and practicality.
Phallic (76%) you appear to have issues with controlling your sexual desires and possibly fidelity.
Anal (43%) you appear to have a good balance of self control and spontaneity.
Oral (63%) you appear to be overly passive and dependent, wanting things to be given to you instead of working for them.

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-iWrote 8/02/2004 03:10:00 PM